NEARLY KILLED ME

This will be a bit personal. More personal than most of all the other articles.It is a bit sensitive and might even create emotions.
Who knows.
So here it goes.....still doing a write up  report in my head.. Yes and here it is.
Not a complete report but a brief audit of me few months ago.

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As all of you know, I'm not perfect. I'm far from perfect. In fact no day passes by without me thanking God for dying for me.
When He says, He becomes a curse (hanged on a tree) that we may be a blessing.
I believe He talks personally to me. Meaning I identity with that on an intimate level.

So my friends asked Why now.

Why did I start publishing now??

Well I don't know.I just did and can't explain much, only that I felt I'd be doing one of that which I was created for.
For I wouldn't want to waste a gift, would you?

Since that's the wrong question they asked, I later asked myself,

Why the heavens did I stay for that long without ever publishing  anything??

This is the answer..its a four word word..the most common of them all.
FEAR
Yes, you read it right, I was afraid.

The choleric sanguine me feared.
So many would ask, with such a personality,
how is Fear in your dictionary?

I'd pose and pretend I didn't hear the question but the ever curious pals would ask again with a more energized and affirmed look.

(Sorry!!!!!that was all in my imagination).

Fear is the only ingredient that the devil can comfortably use against anyone.
It can be through many ways, like using our backgrounds to disqualify, using our past to discredit, using lies to lay a foundation, using people to discriminate, and many more.
In all these ways, fear is conceived.

Fear that we mould and cultivate to its adult life.
Then it overtakes us and reigns in us.

That is exactly what fear does until we are left with no hope,confidence and self realization than we die.
Death of dreams that would have saved a whole country.

God gave us a spirit of courage, soundness, greatness. He sees conquerors when we see failure.He sees light when we see nothing.
He sees victors when we are yet to even understand the recommended armor of a soldier.
That's our God.

He knows your background, past and every messy thing that has happened in your life but sees you as His own...can I say more..
He will still use you as a testimony to the Glory and Honor of His name..
For you are indeed the Child of the Most High.

Fear is like Cancer so let's fight it with all our might that we may be all that God has intended for us.

When I realized all this, then I believed, and I'm living a life like no other for fear does not define me anymore.

I now look prettier, healthier, better and in all positive.
I can definitely not change the past but I am still a game changer.

Enjoy life everyday my dear readers.

You are great and He knows you by name and He has great plans for each and every one of you.
Whether you sinned yesterday, sin today or even is about to sin now.
He loves you and all He wants is your heart.
Carry all that baggage, garbage,load and all you might call it..to the cross

He is an amazing God. So amazing that He is just Amazing.
Amazing He is.

Yours only,

Imelda